I can't take it

"I can't take it...this welcome is gone, and I've waited long enough...to make it"

Realizing how much I don't like change, but I'm sure of course as the saying goes: change is good.

I always think I'm moving forward, and then feel the same way weeks later...crashing down once again. Maybe someday life will be like a country song lol...who knows.

The low point of my life was when a new friend (from work) asked (since I have no boyfriend) if I'm a lesbian ONLY b/c I don't have a boyfriend. Has the world really come to this? Must be at that age when if I'm not WITH someone significant, then I'm gay obviously b/c that's the only explanation...even though my cousin-in-law said he was surprised I didn't have a boyfriend-high point maybe?! you tell me...oh void out there